One tear in the driving rain

one voice in a sea of pain, could the Maker of the stars hear the sound of my breaking heart? One life, that’s all I am and right now I can barely stand. If You’re everything You say You are won’t You come close and hold my heart. So many questions without answers. Your promises remain. Can’t see but I’ll take my chances to hear You call my name.

I am no one to applaud myself for anything I have ever been and I am no one deemed worthy of praising anything good that comes to me in the midst of all that I should not be. My life is nothing above average in comparison to how much better other people think they have it and also when compared to everything worse it could be. But in opening the closet doors into Narnia my eyes have beheld a life so much more filling and satisfying. I have tasted and seen that amongst my meagerness and incapabilities, God has called my name. And He wants to do things with me that I never thought possible. And things don’t feel quite so possible when the whole world thinks that the odds are against you. Well, if God is for us, then who can be against us? Right? 

I am absolutely nothing holy. But I have felt a life touched by the Almighty and All Holy and the world doesn’t satisfy my needs anymore. And I’m pretty certain it will never truly satisfy the needs of anyone ever. The world will never tell you that you can. The world does not believe in a high purpose for anyone ordinary. The world has learned to expect the worst from everything and everyone. The world will never fill a void that is looking for something to never let it down. 

Well I may not be there yet, but I’m closer than I was yesterday. And every day my eyes are opened to wonders anew and because I believe in the miracles and the blessings that are in store for me… little ole me… I begin to find many more of them revealed in the circumstances of my everyday life. I think the blessings have always been there, but when I was focused on different things being important and satisfying, my back was always turned on what was really in the moment for me to see. I know that everyone is created as who they are to serve a bigger purpose that they dream of but never think possible. As our surroundings encourage to believe that only certain people can make any sort of difference in the chain of life, I have learned that it’s the most unthinkable vessels the Lord has sent out into storms. God wants to use you regardless of you are and who you’ve been, what you’ve done, thought, or said. He has plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you hope and a future. He’s just waiting for you to let go of your self, ask for it, and trust that He knows you and will never forsake you even when things aren’t always making sense. 

It’s the discouragement and the voice in your ear that keeps you from accomplishing the best plans for your life. It’s the world telling you what you need, when really it’s much more simple. 

Wake up and smell the fresh air, you’re missing the picture of this short time we’ve been given. The world expects you to do only what you’re capable of on the outside, and we alone cannot do anything and have no reason to do anything. It’s only when we hear the call and let God take our hand as we march through adversity and accomplish things the world would never believe.